Never thought I would have to say goodbye so soon.

On July 10th 2011 I brought shammy to the vets for a C-section and I brought home 5 amazing puppies. Later to be named Jack, Sierra, Sky, Hemi and Star. Throughout their life they made many family’s happy, succeeded in obedience shows, and became best friends to so many people. Stars mother Shammy passed away 3 years ago from osteosarcoma. A year later her grandmother passed due to old age at 12.5 years old. Star and her siblings that live with me and the two that are with others were my rocks. I saw Kimber and Shammy in each and everyone of them. Then I got devasting news that at the same age as her mother star got cancer in the same leg. She had the amputation, chemo and was in a clinical trial for the vaccine. She was doing Great!! She was a fighter and was the bravest most beautiful dog. Last week on the 24th I sadly had to put my older girl thumper down. I was heartbroken. I came home to Star and knew something else was wrong. She refused to eat anything and I mean anything. We tried it all. Took her to the vet multiple times during this past week to finally found out the cancer spread to her brain stem. How did this happen? Why did this happen? And why so soon? I took her home Monday knowing I had little time with her and was going to keep her comfortable. I DIDNT KNOW HOW LITTLE TIME I HAD.  Monday night she worsened fast. I called my vet and she waited for me to bring her back and I let my beautiful girl go in her favorite spot, her van! She loved going for rides so I hope that was the last thing she remembered. I’m heart broken and devastated. Not only did I loose two dogs in a week I lost 2 dogs to bone cancer. I love my babies so much and will see you again at the bridge.

5 thoughts on “Never thought I would have to say goodbye so soon.”

  1. Raelene, I am so sad to read this about Star, especially so soon after your loss of Thumper. Star was a fighter, and rockin’ this. But cancer is an evil thief.

    I felt the same before my Fallon died, had even built up some confidence that everything was OK, she was doing so well, and also got a clean bill of health the week before. But with this evil, POS disease things can change so quickly. Your statement “I didn’t know how little time I had” resonates so much.

    I’m so happy you got to celebrate her birthday a few weeks ago.

    What a happy way to let her go, in the van where she felt comfortable. I’m not so sure I would have been pulled together enough to think that through, your girl’s needs were truly in the center of your thoughts.

    Thinking of you at this horrible time–Thank you so much for posting all the beautiful pictures of your girl. She definitely led a life of joy and love.

    XXOO

  2. OH my Gosh I am so so sorry. I was so hoping Star would kick that ugly “C” to the curb and live a long long life. Rae, I know how heart broken you are. This isn’t fair at all to you. I know Star is with Shammy and they will see you again. I am sending you love and prayers at this horrible sad time. Two dogs to bone cancer and two in one week. I know I wouldn’t be able to do much but crawl in a corner and cry.
    I hope and pray that you see some signs from all three letting you know that they are together. I know you will see them again.

    xoxoxo
    Michelle & Angels Sassy & Bosch

  3. Crying with yoj roght noe, hard. I’ve had the privilege of traveling with you since you first introduced the beautiful Shammy to us…and then Star. We were all pulling so hard for Star, as though that could make a difference. We thought, surely Star will beat this, or at the very least get lots of extended time. We thought, surely you wouldn’t have to endure the brutality of this cruel disease again, as though that would make a difference.

    And then for Thumper to proceed Star to the Bridge just days vefore….too mich…too mich sadness. I’m just so very, very, very sorry. I wish my tears could help make your tears less. K wish I could help take your gut wrench pain away.

    I can only say that, no matter how “short” the earth time Star had with you, she would consider herself the luckiest dog in the world to have had you as her hooman Soul partner. You were Star’s “Heart Human”. And Shammy and Thumper felt the same way.❤
    I know this doesn’t mean much right now, but IF it HAD to happen, Star was able to be Star almost to the transition. And she did get to be in her Van that she loved and with the hoomans thst ahe loved.

    I keep scrolling back up to look at those wonderf ohotos. They help me smile through the tears. And they will help remind you of lives well lived and so very well .loved.

    I do kmow rhis. The reunion at the Bridge when Star saw Shammy and Thumper running towards her to welcome her home must have been soooo glorious!!! I also know they were all bragging about how lucky they were to have you had their hooman.😊

    We are family. We cheered and we cried with you. We also celebrate the life of Star and are furever grateful for the priv of getting to know her…and you….and all her furbaby family.

    Surrounding you with Star’s delightful slobber and eternal cuteness💖
    Sally and My Chunky Spiritual Being Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle and Frankie

  4. Raelene I was so heartbroken when you told me. It’s unbelievable that you’ve had to endure such grief in such a short amount of time. I am so truly sorry.

    Star was an exceptional girl, a fighter who showed that losing a leg wasn’t going to stop her from enjoying what she loved the most in the world, especially you!

    She was not with us long but no doubt you have many great memories to comfort you in this time of sadness. Stay strong, and know that she and Shammy and Thumper are always in your heart, by your side and in every beautiful star in the universe.

    ((((hugs))))

  5. So, so sorry to hear this Rae – I remember traveling the journey with you when Shammy was going through this. There are no words to convey how sad I was to hear this! It’s just not fair. Wishing you peace in the days ahead as you try to wrap your heart around this.

    Paula and Warrior Angel Nitro

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